Why I FLOAT...
First, let me give you a super quick crash course in a few of my most major challenges as a young human:
1. TERRIFIED of the dark
2. SILENCE - I am a loud boisterous person and silence allows one to hear EVERYTHING which leads us to…..
3. WILD imagination and VIVID dreamer - which in most cases is wonderful except when you’re a child who believes everything conjured by the mind is real…i.e. the sound of footsteps leading to my room (which ironically was always my overbeating heart in the pillow). I used to have to watch a show or listen to music to fall asleep
4. OVERACTIVE MIND – I distinctly remember saying to my mom, “It’s not my fault! It’s my minds fault/my emotions I have no control over them!” I truly believed I was powerless…to myself!
5. HIGHLY EMOTIONAL– now I realize how colourful my life is with this blessing, but back then I just wanted off the ride!
As a floater, you may identify that all of these things propose an interesting relationship with jumping into a dark, silent tank accompanied by the thoughts of the mind and emotions that marry themselves to those thoughts.
A few years ago, my whole life was flipped upside down. I chose to rebuild by challenging my fears because I was so tired of being scared all the time. For anyone that struggles with anxiety you know how awful and debilitating this way of living is! Or I should say this way of NOT living because all your systems are constantly in a state of fight or flight.
I first started floating simply to know I could do it. Anytime something made me uncomfortable I became drawn to it. A pitch black box with water in it that closes me in and I just have to lay there?!! For an hour?? BY MYSELF? JUST MYSELF? NOTHING ELSE?! Count me in that sounds like the LAST place I’d ever want to go.
So, why do I have a regular float practice?
I float because it continues to teach me of self-love, acceptance, and the unknown; awareness of thought patterns, awareness of self, that nothingness is NOT terrifying and empty it’s an open door to countless possibilities all of own my creation; that I AM the creator, I AM powerFUL instead of powerLESS; not to have expectations.
I float because it helps me get back to me.
One Love Floater, Float Experience Guide